Over and Done With

I found out a week ago today that the man that I felt I loved has been living with a woman that he is having sex with. He would not have told me had I not asked him and thankfully, I found the courage to do just that. What a terrible waste of my time and energy. I don't know how long it's been going on, but, at this point in time, I feel terribly empty. I am saddened to know that someone I cared for had no regard for me, but, we cannot change what others think and do.

This passed week, I have focused on my schooling and work to help me through this.

I found out not this last Tuesday, but the one before that my ex is not only involved with someone but fancies himself in love. It was a bit sad for me because he brought our child around this woman without ever mentioning it to me. Other than that, I am happy to know that that chapter is over for me. He will not continue to pester me, because hopefully, he will be happy with this person.

I am so tired all of the time. I really enjoy the work that I do, but, I want to work for another company. I feel as if the things that they do in order to boost employee morale are not enough. There is a distinction made between salaried and hourly employees and that distinction is a huge negative.

I am tired and would like nothing more than to finally be able to relax in someone's arms and go to sleep. I think, however, that the moral to this story for me is that I should have done what I knew to be right years and years ago.

I will not be married as I wanted...because of the choices that I've made. How very depressing.